Surge0584

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Stolen love by Surge0584, literature

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Stolen love

I broke my own heart I couldn't be honest Couldn't play my part Pursue my romance in earnest I had you For a couple of minutes But I waited to drop the other shoe I should have been explicit With my heart from the beginning at our start you left my head and heart spinning I was locked in your embrace I was scared your eyes met my face and I dared...to lean in our lips about to seal the pact of passion my heart burning to feel the door opens our embrace breaks a return to the motions this will always be one of my mistakes I should have just fucking kissed you and allow my world to open to all the possibilities of you, of me, what we could be

the fool in me by Surge0584, literature

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the fool in me

spinning chaotically with open arms frees me from harm's way or is it with danger that i am indisposed as i wander; with my eyes closed hoping that luck would be on my side do tell, how i am to abide by time and our collision would be prevented leaving you, from me, circumvented i carelessly meander through with no known path to be true like comets on an unknown trajectory am i to see wonders or know only misery what lies beyond my fate that keeps me in this bewildered state curse he who wanders with the sun in his eyes he doesn't see that which lies ahead or below misfortune can he only know is this what has become of my destiny?

Touch by Surge0584, literature

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Touch

touch the heat of our skin burns the air between us your kinesthetic prowess lingers pulling me into your orbit your gravity caressing me leaving only to want desiring the tactile paradise that is your touch i shiver in anticipation our lips aquiver i breathe haltingly unsteady and suspended the electric taste of contact transcending my synapses beyond mere sensation floating into ecstacy i feel i could cease to be the moment i have waited for you being a part of it working seamlessly some well oiled machine i could care less and be careless with my heart my love and those i deem worthy to receive but you stole it and i will

A ghost by Surge0584, literature

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A ghost

i know how it feels to be one of them a shade empty jealous of others of their life of their will to live only feeling the cold i know what they feel because it burned in me thanatos fever itching me all over alive but not dead but alive hollowed out just wanting an out needing a fix of life of will only sustaining me for moments giving me little comfort and feeling like i'm lost among the masses screaming, tearing at my self crying out to the void seeing each other but never acknowledging one's presence i was a ghost continuing on without purpose never fully realized dreams, passions, wishes a living tr

Bottled by Surge0584, literature

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Bottled

Bottled I feel all these ranges of emotion and i so badly want to just let them pour out of me i feel if don't my heart may give out i feel so angry that it burns this overwhelming feeling of heat that i feel on my face in my tears this burning may envelope me in flames burning soul and body alike not even words can tame it i feel so utterly hopeless that everyday i wake up tired and worn forcing myself to leave my room and my house to continue with my life my heart feels weighted and heavy my shoulders and neck are sore my joints ache i feel weak and defeated i fight with myself every minute of every hour not

forces unknown by Surge0584, literature

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forces unknown

feeling slow and confused gravity is pulling me into you make me want to be used forces known and unknown pull me through this is getting a little hazy breathing heavy i am at the point of no return beads of sweat glisten on you feeling the magnetism that draws me i feel so uninhibited only with you i am going so crazy the world slowly shed us away from it all only our senses tell us of each other just you and me

Broken by Surge0584, literature

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Broken

broken today i was happy when the sun rose i felt today i was whole with the world i breathed and now i am i am broken i am no longer the greater portion of my being i waded with the waters the ebb and flow of change but i am no longer continuous i am lost to my soul i have felt happiness i have reveled in the joy of pleasure but i have yet to feel love and i have tasted the bitter fruit of sorrow the permanence of what was is no longer guaranteed and i feel broken shamed i cry feeling the stenosis in my airway the very air i breathe stolen from me i feel defeated as if all other honors and glories were

Reach for me by Surge0584, literature

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Reach for me

Reach for me Reach for me And don’t let go The tactile sense That anchors my spirit To the clay Reach for me Because I have been Happy I have felt Pleasure I have suffered Sorrow I have tasted Love I Have felt so lonely Yet loved I Have hated my routine Yet was happy Reach for me So I will never feel this again The neural sensation of touch Surpasses the feeling of another person Hand in hand, never letting go Physically yes, Spiritually no, Reach for me So that this can be what I know Today’s sorrow Tomorrow’s pleasure Reach for me All said in the air I breathe And just realizing I can a

Sometimes always maybe by Surge0584, literature

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Sometimes always maybe

Sometimes the world is what you see and sometimes the love that you know shouldn't be but just be be there there for me Always we wish to be wayward and free and always we ask for the world just to be but just breathe breathe in in for me Mostly we live to be at the sea and mostly we know our love can still be but just say say if if you love me and i'll know the world was meant for you and me

afterglow by Surge0584, literature

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Cerulean by Surge0584, literature

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Cerulean

she left us with something beautiful only to have written it in every child's book she left them with the most beautiful word ever written noone dared uttered that word without fear of bursting into tears only with watery eyes did they close their books in silence onyl then in the future would a child from way back then still have in his possesion that book torn and tattered he would open in times of need he never read that book only staring at the cover page on which the elegantly cursive letters had started to fade from the yellowed and bug eaten paper staring long enough for his eyes to water and tear but still after

Ghosts by Surge0584, literature

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Ghosts

memories with a soul a crux in nature or perhaps nature intensified? every intense tragedy which has embedded itself into time and material doomed and damned repetition for punishment seeking to be excorcised from this earthly plane moving in slow motion damned for ignorance denial of a state being in not being immaterialistic in nature wisps of illuminated smoke playing over and over death love life neither a part of heaven or hell near god, but unable to feel his divine embrace seeking peace in death detachment disembodied and lost

a story by Surge0584, literature

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a story

i wait here i watch as the world walks by so many people so many paths all leading to a different conclusion young, old, and wiser i will never get to meet them and i will never know their story how is it that i'll know yours and you will know mine i day dream here amusing idleness gathering what little i know of the world only that i am just a face in sea of people i wait here with heavy heart pulling at my chest like lead hopeful of your apparition and anxious for your arrival i watch here i wait i pray all day long so alone in this crowd noone stops to notice i am just a perfect stranger like everyone else inquiri

drifting by Surge0584, literature

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drifting

with the days behind me and the sun in front of me i will look ahead to the time and walk away with what's left behind and in the days of summer we will easily forget the angst and saddness that made time wane take me away lead me on the road and leave this place behind go with a fresh face and name in lazy days of summer we can idle away the time breathing in the air just like we were born

iris by Surge0584, literature

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iris

i once remembered when we could never part but that was so long ago childhood seems so fleeting as time buries it away you would never go when i dreamed with the moon and the stars you never wanted to be left behind so i stayed with you i wish you were here holding my arm brave only with you we could go walk through anything but only time knows seasons in life you left only in spring and i stayed through into winter my fears, my lies they were inconsequential paradoxes of life i only thought of them in brevity only because you were there to supplicate the hungry hourglass of my mind and i never had an issue only that

eyes by Surge0584, literature

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eyes

my heart is open to the deluge of passing years. i have fallen victim to the salt of my tears behind these eyes, lay an eschelon of all my fallacies and fears someday i'll pray that i am not too far from home helpless and endearing i gather what little i have left to fight behind these eyes, i try to find that what i do, i do is right and in these dreams, all i find are oceans of eternity, so i sleep into lackluster times, finding i sleep deeper and longer each time, peace in the slow motion of my mind reaching a city, a time that can envelop me. i dont want to dream in a somnombular notion. and when my eyes open, i will cease

incomplete by Surge0584, literature

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incomplete

With a broken smile beneath her whispered wings, she fell into his embrace. Left in the company of each other's sensory perceptions, all was lost to time and space. He found her godlike beauty through all the layers of her mystery. Wanting to love her though he only knew her name, but he loved who she was nonetheless. She, she reciprocated, she thought she loved him all her life the moment their eyes met. The visual contact between the glazed orbs that were the portals and very witnesses for their souls, revealing all that was in their life, their history.

hermit's way by Surge0584, literature

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hermit's way

i don't even know where to begin where to paint the portrait of this time this moment, where to pinpoint my day with no map no compass along the hermit's way musing over the concept of meandering loss wondering aimless if we all have felt like this at some point in our lives then why can't anyone ever give a definitive answer why can't there be a solution how come when we feel like this we feel so alone yet everyone feels it it doesn't have to be a singular experience yet it can't be felt in no other way and we all look for that light that burns bright at the very top the light that illuminates the hermit's way giving us k

ramblings of an insomniac by Surge0584, literature

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ramblings of an insomniac

another sleepless night contemplating the future unable to dream up the solutions to this mortal coil insomnia brought on by a mind thinking past the speed of light thoughts rushing in and out making time blur into a mess unable to attain the peace of a simpleton with a one-track one thought mind the comfort of sleep far far away warmed by the radiated glow from the television being witness to all the get rich get poor quick schemes wondering if God ever stays up this late not ever knowing because we're not on the best of terms difference of opinion mainly not even sure if i should be saddened by the loss really does

musings on loss by Surge0584, literature

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musings on loss

we all wish we could turn back time decisions choices we all wish we could have it back words hurts pains we caused deep down inside we all want to go back in time go back to that moment where our life ceased to be where it stops dead where our routines end and our life goes in slow motion the only way we can describe it is everyone is moving blurring into the surroundings leaving us moving slow every movement thickened by sheer terror grief and we feel stuck in this loop briefly each day we get to see everyone we know and love everyday they try words of comfort gestures of love and in those moments we see them

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About Surge0584

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May 17
United States
Deviant for 17 years
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poet , medicine geek, lover of books and music, video game junkie who refuses to seek treatment, and someone who is indulgent with their life's loves.

Current Residence: Hammond,IN
Favourite genre of music: Anything, but country
Operating System: Windows
MP3 player of choice: Archos 504
Wallpaper of choice: Silent Hill
Favourite cartoon character: Bender
Personal Quote: TU FUI EGO ERIS

Favourite Visual Artist

Hiroshige

Favourite Movies

Silent Hill

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

People in Planes

Favourite Writers

Rainer Maria Rilke

Favourite Games

Silent Hill

Favourite Gaming Platform

RPG, FPS

Tools of the Trade

Pen and heart

Other Interests

amateur photography, poetry, film

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Surge0584

Sep 25, 2009

Writer's block

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I can't. This is so frustrating being unable to write anything, I feel all this emotion and it just stays in. I feel like I am going to explode with everything I hold in. I just want to find the words that make sense, that make it beautiful, that make me feel something outside of my current life. I want someone to tell me they know what I am feeling. I feel so full of words but empty at the same time. I just don't know, I just want to write something that speaks to another person's soul. And as cliche as that may sound, that has always been my intentions. Someone once read some of the darkest things that I have written and it made them cry. I